dreamz

just had a weird weird dream..i was actually reciting a poem..which is weird..what's even more weird, it was those kinda cheezy lovey-dovey kinda poem...but that's not the end of it...i was reciting it.......in mandarin

in mandarin!? everyone knows that my chinese is terrible, but somehow in my dream i was able to recite a whole poem...a love poem!? must be all the hongkong serials i'd been watching...now it's affecting my dreams..damn...

but i know what's the real reason, it's getting closer and closer to september..one year ago..i did something really really stupid...something which was totally uncharacteristic...in actual fact, the whole of last year up till september, i was doing stupid stupid things..it had never occured to me that i could actually do those things..why i did it...i dunno..but i know it was a terrible time for 2 people.

now as i approach the time i'm going to depart for aussie, i'm thinking more and more abt the issue..i made a promise during that time, i've been thinking alot whether i can fulfill that promise i made...actually it wasn't a promise, it was more like a pact. hopefully i can resolve it before i leave, it has been a knotty issue that has always been in the back of my head...

earggghhh!!!!!!! i'm supposed to have gotten over and had let go of it......because i haven't deserved it...

Black-out

wuah, suddenly the whole place just went pitch black...tot what happened...looked out of the window toa payoh was still bright...but the whole of bishan was gone...msged des and realised that hougang was out too..later called uncle bert to check on them and realised that uncle kee is stuck in the lift and auntie leng might be stuck in a lift too...good thing that toa payoh din go out...cos my mama stays there with only her maid...might have caused a bit of panic there... popo's side still not too bad cos got uncle bert there to keep things calm...we tried to contact auntie leng's handphone but apparently the whole singapore calling each other and couldn't get through to her..fortunately it turned out she wasn't stuck in the lift..after about 20mins power progressively came back in bishan and the excitement here was over but still we were anxiously waiting for news on uncle kee..fortunately at abt 11pm, uncle bert called to say that power at Jurong has been restored and uncle kee's out of the lift.

listening to class 95 now...really ironic...i'm not familiar with the programme but from what i hear i think it's a programme where listeners send in messages they wan the deejay to read out..and amongst listeners sending in updates on the blackout situation, there were love messages from couples to each other...and it's like rather weird...imagine the deejay one moment reading updates, the next he's saying "to darling, i'll love you forever from dear dear"...weird man......

aniwaez the excitement is now over...i'm going to bed sooon.......yaaawwnnnzzzzzz

yawnz

had things to write...tot of how to write them...but too lazy to write...yawnz...niteyz

Unforgiving Christian..

This was the message today in church given by Rev. William Harding. It was a rather thought-provoking message and really got me thinking - is there anyone in my life who I still carry a grudge for? Have I forgiven everyone who has pissed me off in one way or another? Am I able to forgive instantly someone who has hurt me deeply? Or would I hold that grudge in my heart and never allow myself to forgive what that person has done? But can that grudge actually compare to how I, and the rest of the world, continually hurt and sin against the Lord on a daily basis? But the Lord is able to forgive us, instantly, all the transgressions that we have done against Him as though it has NEVER happened before. For all the sins we have done in our lifes, the only way we can pay for all of these sins is through death, but He chose to bear all these sins through His son Jesus, who died for us so that ALL our sins will be wiped clean. Is there a greater love than His? Can anyone in this world say that he is willing to die for the one who persecutes him? The answer is, No. Only God can.

This is the passage from the Bible which Rev. Harding preached from, please do read through it and if you would like to discuss it, feel free to email me.

Matthew 18:21-35
21 Then Peter came to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Till seven times?
22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.
23 Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a
certain king, which would take account of his servants.
24 And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto
him, which owed him ten thousand talents.
25 But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded
him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to
be made.
26 The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him,
saying Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.
27 Then the lord of that servant was moved with
compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.
28 But the same servant went out, and found one of his
fellowservants, which owed him an hundred pence, and took him by his
throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest.
29 And his fellowservant fell down at his feet, and
besought him, saying, Have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.
30 And he would not: but went and cast him into prison,
till he should pay the debt.
31 So when his fellowservants saw what was done, they were
very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.
32 Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto
him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst
me:
33 Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy
fellowservant, even as I had pity on thee?
34 And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the
tormentors, till he should pay all that was done unto him.
35 So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you,
if ye from your hearts forgive not every one his brother their trespasses.

Desmond's first blog!!!

well well, Des has joined the blogging community..very happy he has done so, well one more blog for me to read when i log on...at least now i have more things to do on the net..you can find his blog here or the address's also found in the side bar under Friend's Journals...please do support his blog...i have a feeling more people will read his blog than mine though...hehz..

anyhow...Welcome DES!!!!!!

Family photo-taking day...

This morning, dad woke me up to tell me that we're going for kway chup brunch. very happy, but a bit sad too cos it'll be the last time i'm going to have our favourite kway chup in quite a while..wonder if i'll really miss it..but i know i'll miss the drive down to Tampines though...aniwaez the kway chup was good as usual...and after that we went home and i prepared to go for the pre-departure seminar...

the seminar was well...stupid...everything that was said there had already been covered by my counsellors...so basically it's just a waste of time...was at the seminar with Jermaine and well...we both were actually bored there...after that my dad came to pick us up and we went down to Upper Pierce reservoir for our photo-taking.. it was a rather interesting and well...new experience...can't really remember the last time the whole family went outdoors like this...we do go for meals as a whole family...but hasn't done an outdoor activity as such before...or in a long time...was quite fun but this being singapore...rather hot...we took many photos and well..had a great time in general...

after the photo-taking session we went down to Sembawang for dinner...well...dinner was well...normal...all the usual tantrums and habits...but one thing happened...the waiter asked us if we wanted chopsticks or fork and spoons....jermz and i were like "what do you mean by that?!" well...at first i thought that it's because he thought we didn't know how to use chopsticks...or because the kids dunno how to use...i wanted to say we're all Chinese...who doesn't know how to use chopsticks? but after thinking a while...i realised...it's just a question...i guess it's just me trying to find fault at every single minor detail...dunno why...usually i just bo chup...i put it down to *predeparture stress*..sighz...

went down to town with james, jermz, jayne and jon after dinner...and we went to coffee bean and potblack...totally off-day...can't really pot properly today...ran into Desmond there and yf joined later...aniwaez..after 3 hours of pool and snooker...yf sent me home and here i am typing this whole thing...shortened the ending cos..too sianz to type anymore...

Departure confirmed~

okie..just now went down to STA travels to book my flight despite not receiving my CoE, or Confirmation of Enrolment. i'll be leaving on the 4 July, QF 10 1945 flight..haiz..that's next sunday.....this time around feel totally different than the last time i went to Pearce..totally different..well mainly because this time i'm paying to go..not getting paid to go...my parents will be following me down and they'll be staying for 3 days...sighz...everything's so expensive..............................

aniwaez also went down to the John Little warehouse sale at Singapore Expo this morning...managed to buy a big luggage for $33...so cheap...cannot take it...and also bought some clothes...haiz..was out the whole day...so very tired now...sigh...

anyway..can sense that the mood at home lately isn't very good...have a feeling my mum is actually very sad, my dad's just not his usual self..my sis though she spending all her time in front of the tv as usual watching vcds...can also sense a bit of uneasiness...haiz...i myself also feeling rather moody...in about a week, will only be seeing home once every year when i come back from holidays...right now alot of worries and sadness in the house..though everyone is trying to hide it...it's rather apparent...sighz...just hope these 4 years go by quickly...

Crazy Fifa

just read some articles on Soccernet...apparently Fifa is going to announce that players who take off their shirts when celebrating a goal will be cautioned with a yellow card. they seem to find that it's "unsporting" behaviour to celebrate in this way and it's deemed as "excessive displays of joy" all i can say is...ABSOLUTE CRAP.

anyone who have played football, especially if it's competitive football, will know the kind of emotions the players go through when they score a goal. it's inevitable that they will celebrate..if it's an important game...it's inevitable that emotions run high during the game...to caution a player for celebrating a goal...well it's ridiculous..soon they'll book players for smiling after scoring a goal. football is about passion..without passion..football is not football...in fact...i can't think of anything that can function without passion...sometimes i actually wonder if the people who came up with these nonsense, whether they actually watch football or are in fact football fans...just get the feeling that they are just businessmen, who totally dun give a damn about football, dun know anything about it, dun care about it, there are just too many stupid regulations that don't make sense at all..

oh well...i'm rather spent...gonna catch an hour's sleep before the match...

Life bloody sucks....

Samsung E700A

sighz...$700 gone like that....also dun really know why i bought the fone...almost like an impulse buy...i had always wanted to buy this fone...been delaying so long but just now i just heck cared and bought it...dunno why i dun really feel satisfied...but i guess i am happy that i've finally got a new fone...

anyhow...England won last night...and Paul Scholes finally scored...a vital goal as well...as that's the goal which brought england back into the match...then rooney went to work..he is having a great tournament so far...but i'm still sceptical about all the hype he's getting...but i guess if he is able to keep his head...and Moyes can protect him sufficiently..he shld turn out good...

sighz...gotta go meet terence later...haiz...investments not doing well sia....MONEY NO ENUFF!!!!

Welcome to RMIT

well...this morning at abt 10am...Allan, the IDP counsellor handling my RMIT application called to inform me that RMIT has approved my application. Finally my wait is over and told him that i'll accept RMIT's offer and won't be taking up Deakin's offer...feel a bit bad because Deakin replied me so promptly...but oh well..RMIT has always been my first choice..the one year working experience, to me, is crucial..also i'll be bunking in with Dillon and he stays just 10mins away from RMIT...so i'll save a hell lot on transportation fees..have to pay adult fares..sighz...

anyhow after sending the rice dumplings my mum made to my grandma's house, my sis and i went down to town with uncle Bert for lunch and shopping..ate at Sushi Tei...haiz..finally satisfied my sushi craving...felt so happy...after that we went shopping a while then i had to go for my dental appointment..talking abt that clinic...it was DAMN cool...excellent decor, excellent service, excellent everything...my dad got recommended to that clinic by his friend and it so happens the dentist was a church member..but it's really super good...they have free coffee and tea for the patients, played jazz music and even have personal movie sets...i didn't try those though..maybe in future... in fact when i first saw the clinic i was a bit intimidated actually..cos it didn't look like a clinic..it looked more like er.....a hotel lobby? but with free coffee and tea... anyhow...i just went for a general check-up and cleaning...maybe i'll actually go back to him this time...haven't been keeping my appointments with other dentists but this one...a re-visit is a definite. total damage: $50 - a bit steep, but definitely worth it..

after that, we had to rush down to shenton way to get the bank draft which another uncle was preparing for me cos Allan wanted us to settle everything by today so that we can actually be on time for the commencement date. after a whole lot of hurrying here and there...finally the bank draft was submitted...and we broke to Killiney's for coffee and toast...after that was more shopping while my sis went to meet her fren for dinner...was lookng for shoes, but the particular shoe i was looking for, seems like the whole town sold out..finally went down to Queensway to look for it...after disappointment from the first 3 shops we entered...we entered the third shop...just as my uncle turned to the shop assistant to ask abt the size...the assistant said "$125" everywhere else was selling at least $170...so my uncle said bring the size...i tried it on...and okie...it was half a size too big...but for such a bargain...we didn't really care.. haha

anyway...after buying the shoe..we came home...and so here i am..typing out this long long blog while i ask dillon abt what to bring and stuff...sighz...so tiring...

more tml...

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1 John 4:7-11

"Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.
He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.
In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him.
Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.
Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another."

Love one another and make the world a better place..

long long day

waited the whole day for a call from IDP, but it never came. i still dunno whether i'm accepted into RMIT yet. Des called in the afternoon and we talked quite about studying in aussie...rather torn...while i hope that he comes to aussie to study, so that at least i'll have a buddy there, another part of me hopes that he'll stay in singapore to study as overseas studies is really damn expensive..dunno how am i and my family going to survive this period...oh well...chuan dao qiao tou zi rang zhi...

went for dinner with nf, ruiling, felix and vanessa...went to fish & co because nf wanted to eat fish and chips..dinner was okie...but my fish wasn't very fresh...i guess still the one near PS is still the best...at least the last time i ate there, the fish was very fresh and well-prepared..dare say the best fish and chips i've tasted in singapore..well..after dinner felix sent us home but we were supposed to meet again later at my place to watch football..nf and ruiling reached first and it wasn't long before ruiling fell asleep in my room...felix and vanessa came later but after the first half of Italy-Sweden match, vanessa too couldn't take it anymore and went to sleep in the room...leaving us 3 guys outside watching...oh well..the game ended disappointingly in a draw..sighz..Italy's gonna have a big struggle in their last game if they were to go through...sighz...again they are going to under-achieve...........

anyhow...now it's my turn to can't tahan anymore...so........zZzzZZZZZZzzzzZZzZZZZzZZZZzzzZzZZZzzzzzZzZZzz

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Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 5 parts ambition 3 parts joy

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going down to IDP again tml to ask abt my RMIT application, as well as to ask what is there to prepare, heard there's supposed to be some bank draft thingy...then there's the student visa thingy...haiz..so many things to prepare...so little time...can only blame....NUS/NTU and blood SMU...as well as all those people who hold on to offers from more than one uni...bloody typical kiasu singaporeans...think i'm going to follow lizzy's parents footsteps and get a PR in aussie/nz and then when i've enuff money bring my parents over there too...my kids can grow up there as well..enuff of singapore's cocked up system...GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Logitech QuickCam Zoom

ahhh....i finally have a webcam...quite fun...just have to find out how to use it properly...aniwaez i bought it from sim lim just now for $110..not bad..even has a built-in mic....can make videos..

now i have to decide whether to get one more to bring to aussie or get a digtal-cum-web cam...i dun exactly need a digi-cam..but the last time i was in aussie..i have totally no memories to bring back...but then..i'm a camera-shy guy...dun like to take pics..oh well...decisions decisions..

Uni Replied

well, Deakin Uni accepted my application today. But I'm still holding out for RMIT to reply as that's my first choice. Aaron said that they are still pushing for a reply from them. since i have a spot already, i'll need to start thinking abt accomodation again..Dillon's place is rather far from Deakin, so..i dunno..hope he longs on tonite so that i can talk to him.

Me on my bed when we were still staying at Tampines

Zidane Magic

England sunk by one man - Zinedine Zidane. can't believe this man...when i saw him put those 2 goals in, i didn't know how to react...just blur...he's too good already...before the goals, he was just floating around, didn't look much of a threat, oh well..hallmark of a great player..however for france, with this kind of luck, well i dare say 70% of the title is theirs liaoz..i know it's just one game, but u put zidane in singapore's national team, even they can win something la...haiz...too good...

Falling sick~~

**sniff sniff** sighz...falling sick liaoz la...fever getting higher and higher everyday so sianz...started last nite...tonite even hotter...sighz..how how?? bo bian lo..have to go sit in front of the tv soon liaoz...first match of the day going to start in abt an hour...oh..i was talking about FOotball Fever...more specifically Euro2004 fever...
France VS England tonight...actually i dun actually support either teams, but because Man Utd is an English club...and the ARSE's influence is so strong in the french team, tonite i'm supporting England...my team for this tournament is Italy actually...cos it's about time they win something.

haiz..no mood to type anymore...

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The Key - for that special someone

We talk about the key,
that opens my heart
A place so shut off,
and closed from the start

No thief could break in,
no locksmith could pick
No one could open it,
with just any old trick

That key has been lost,
for oh so long
The door unbreakable,
and so very strong

But somehow you managed,
you searched and you found
That key to my heart
and entered without a sound

I don't know how long,
you were actually there
But when I found out,
it filled me with fear

How did you get into,
a door with a lock
Never saying a word,
or bothering to knock

And where has that key been,
for all these years
Then all of a sudden,
it mysteriously appears

After all this time,
I figured it out
And now I know what,
this key is about

So if the day comes,
that you must part,
you will take with you,
the key to my heart

Because that key,
has always been you,
something so precious,
so loving and new.

So for all that you are,
I thank God above,
for all that you've given,
your kindness and love.

Quotable quotes

These dudes crack me up sometimes... :P

"Would I like to have a heart of Chelsea boys made here? Yes I would."
Jose Mourinho sparks nervous, confused glances at the Chelsea academy.

"I tried to allay the fears of the fans by holding a public press conference but when the pizza man makes a delivery to my house and writes a note inside the box pleading with me to stay, it's gone too far."
Ruud van Nistelrooy gets a surprise side order of begging with his large Hawaiian.

"They've conceded a lot of goals but their other problem is they've let a lot in."
Gary Lineker, BBC

"If history is going to repeat itself I should think we can expect the same thing again."
Terry Venables, ITV

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one of my fave baby pics, yes i'm the baby, that's my sis 

BLOODY STARHUB!!!!!!!!!!!!

AGAIN they sent me a letter to ask me to pay for a bill that i have proven to them time and time the past 3 years that doesn't belong to me..just last month they told me that they will settle it and THIS IS HOW THEY SETTLE IT?!?!!??! by threatening to send me to court?!?!?!?! bloody hell...damn starhub..tomorrow's going to be another table banging day..EEEEEEEEAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

sighz after watching Iron Chef last evening, i've been having a craving for sushi..however the topic for the chefs weren't sushi, but just suddenly feel like eating sushi..ahh..sashimi..unagi...earghhhh!!!! must get food out of my mind..too fat already.

it's friday, but still no response from IDP whether i'm accepted or not. maybe breasts many balls little(xiong duo ji shao) already...oh well...see how lo..going to call sam soon. or maybe i'll wait for tml...hmmmz.....

my dad wants me to go buy TWO webcams..haiz..dunno which ones to buy...but too lazy to go and look too...BUT tml i'll definitely go down to funan or sim lim to have a look..anyone wanna go can let me know k? thinking of buying a MP3 player-cum-voice-recorder...but as what felix says..no point one...oh well...scrap that plan for now..web cam web cam...haiz...

was surfing around this afternoon, initially looking for homestays and hostels in melbourne, somehow i drifted and started looking for football videos and stumbled upon SoccerPulse Community (Powered by Invision Power Board) thought it's damn cool esp the videos section. For all football fans, must check it out!!

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

out of boredom, i stumbled upon the new templates blogger.com gives us and found this template. i liked it so i'm going to use this from now on..i guess this is a complete makeover for my blog and think it looks much better now...well says alot abt my designing skills lol

anyhow i added a another feature, you can now add comments to my posts, so let me know what you think abt what i write or just leave me a note...cheers..

tried looking for accomodation in melbourne, but it seams like the prices are crazy. i guess i'd really have to look for places outside the city that means alot of travelling time, bus fares, train fares, sighz...everything needs money...was hoping to get a spot in Unilodge Swanston, that's just 200m away from RMIT but guess it'll be very competitive and it is rather ex as well..maybe in my last year i'll try to get a room there..live in comfort haha

sighz...things are happening so fast....help?

all of a sudden, i'm on my way to aussie again. i was thinking of applying for the february intake, but my mum wanted me to go asap, which is good because i'm not getting any younger. anyway tml i'm going back down to IDP to tell them that i want to apply for RMIT as well, sighz, another A$70 of registration fee gone...but i myself prefer RMIT's program. oh well...again i'm facing the wait for the unis to accept my applications..hate this feeling, my future in the hands on people who don't actually give a damn about me..

one regret, i won't be going down to perth to study, sighz, means i can't go and look for..ahem..that person know who that person is..hehz..sorry but this time my parents did all the deciding, it's their money what...have to do what they say..got time i'll fly down perth one..dun worry ;)

sighz..dunno what else to write liaoz...

Destination: Deakins University, Victoria, Australia

can anyone say poverty?

u can find love when u close the door of reasoning and logic and open to doors of ur heart...

and by special request from that special someone....

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

okie..i did it..i actually watched a Harry Potter film.....i've said i'd never watch a harry potter film but my cousin James had free tickets, so what the heck, just went to watch...storyline was crap but the special effects was very good spent the whole afternoon and half the night walking around with James and Jayne and had well...quite a good time..in fact it was the first time i had been out with the two of them

checked mailbox when i came back, and guess what.. a letter from NTU....after a whole lot of crap, they got to the point to tell me that they've denied me admission again....checked the online appeal thingy, told me to write down my reason for appeal in less than 50 words...crap...

i hate singapore's education system...

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still holdin' on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met - it's the same feelin' i get
Only feels much stronger - i wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...

So if you're feelin' lonely ... don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than i should...

Please forgive me - i know not what i do
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you
don't deny me - this pain i'm going through
Please forgive me - if i need ya like i do
Please believe me - every word i say is true
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on - you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves - i remember you
I remember the nights - ya know i still do

So if you're feeling lonely... don't
You're the only one i'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than i should

Please forgive me - i know not what i do
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me - this pain i'm going through
Please forgive me - if i need ya like i do
Please believe me - every word i say is true
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you

One thing i'm sure of - is the way we make love
And the one thing i depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath i'm prayin'
That's why i'm sayin'...

Please forgive me - i know not what i do
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me - this pain i'm going through
Please forgive me - if i need ya like i do
Never leave me - i don't know what i'd do
Please forgive me - i can't stop lovin' you

Love can fill emptiness...where can one find love?

Emptiness...what can fill emptiness?