Miserable.

That this year's valentines' day is spent alone yet again compounds the misery I'm feeling.

I'd been saying this for a very long time. When one is single, they'll always dream of life with a partner. When one is attached, they'll think that singlehood is sometimes better.

This year's valentine's day was spent lying on my parents' bed watching tv. Last year's valentine's day was spent on a plane back to melbourne. I can't even remember the valentine's day the year before. Actually I think I'm really suited for life as an auditor like my sis. Although my sis sorts of hates the work she's doing, the dreadful hours she has to put in will suit my current lifestyle perfectly. On my last day of work at HSBC, I had lunch with a colleague of mine. She asked me why did I choose to study accountancy. I told her that I liked the long hours that an auditor has to work. I like it because I like the lack of social life that comes with the job. I remember she had this incredulous look on her face. Why would a young man like me not want to go out and socialise? I remember I told Guohui that nowadays I'm too lazy to go out and know more people. He told me that should always go out and socialise.

Right now, all I want to do is get past day by day. All I want is to be as anonymous as I can in this world. Just do what I have to do in order to survive.

Why?

Because I can't stand up anymore.