stupid law test

i officially hate law...stupid test...2 questions..can't finish even half of them...i guess i haven't written essays for too long...4 years to be exact...going to fail it liao...totally low-morale after that...still feeling kinda sianz..only had one bright spot of the day..but it's dimming out rather rapidly...

Why do people do the things they do?

Man will never be satisfied with what they've got.

But can man actually be satisfied when they've got nothing?

Or is it a blessing they've gotten nothing?

Who knows....who cares?

Going to start studying full-time soon...hopefully it'll be tml..just need to drag my ass out of the stupid house..okie..not stupid house...stupid me...

AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Playboy...penthouse...

Jansen went for lunch today with Dillon, Shanna and Bonnie. They went to a restaurant at Crown. The restaurant was called Margos. It was serving a buffet - specifically seafood buffet. They sat down right next to the buffet line, anticipating a hearty meal. After the drinks were served, they headed off to get their food. They helped themselves to the rich variety of food on offer. They had a very good time having their meal. Jansen could hardly walk by the end of the meal. His jeans were feeling tight again.

BUT

Jansen ate many OYSTERS...and oysters are natural aphrodisiacs..and Jansen ate many...so...erm...Jansen's going to take a cold shower..

BBRRRRRR.....

I've found the reason

I'm not a perfect person
as many things I wish I didn't do
but I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
it's something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
that's why I need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that I do
and the reason is you

"The Reason" - Hoobastank

Am I Weird?

Am I weird? Everyone I've met so far, everyone I've talked to, all asked me the same question at one point or another - "Do you miss home?" Well, I don't miss home.

Am I supposed to miss home? I guess it's human nature to miss home when they are away from home. Everyone longs to be close to people they love and people who love them. When you take a person away from that environment, it is the norm for that person to want to go home. Humans do not like unfamiliar places. When they reach an unfamiliar area, their first instinct is to retreat. Go back to where they came from. Go back to where they are familiar and where they know their way around. So people think that whenever another leaves home/country, they will miss home. It is almost a given. Leave home, miss home. Sometimes it don't even need the person to be out of the country to miss home. Someone can be having a bad day at work and they miss home. Missing home seems to be a very normal thing.

Don't get me wrong, I do love being home. There are many things for me to go back to at home. My parents, my sister, my grandparents, all my aunties and uncles, my cousins. There are also my friends, people like ah des, nf, yf..all my closest friends..my billiards kakis..there's plenty to miss back home..BUT

what's the point? what's the point of missing home so much? i prefer to enjoy what i have now..i choose to be happy..if i'm missing home all the time..i'm not happy...if i miss home so much..how am i going to survive next semester when i go home for holidays this semester break?

i know my mum, my dad and my sis misses me back home..but pa, ma, jie..i chose to come here..and i'm doing fine here..though i do not miss home, u all are always on my mind..but i have chosen not to miss home because i dun wan the same thing to happen as when i was in perth when i missed home and couldn't do well enuff there..i do not have any other alternatives now..this is my last try..i know that i've been messing up my life for the last few years..but trust me that i'll make good this time ard..DO NOT WORRY ABT ME..that u all keep worrying abt me makes me worry that u are worrying abt me...get it??

bad idea typing this blog...making me feel sianz again..

yeah!

FINALLY finished that stupid computing assignment...after 3-4 days of stressing over it..it's finally over..wasted so much time on the intricate details of the design of the database...and forgot to change TWO vital attributes..DAMN!! 2 marks gone like that..haiz..but it's over and i'm not going to think abt it...gonna sleep like a baby tonite..tml i have to start on my accounting assignment and study for my law exam thru the weekend...haiz...

**activates nerd mode**

just reached home from bible study...talked abt Peter and Silas today..had some interesting discussions...but due to the stress from the last few days..wasn't fully focused..oh well..looking forward to a good rest next wednesday...well..at least for one day...then the following weekend got an econs test..sch is really getting stressful......haizz.....at least now i am finally able to focus fully on uni..hopefully it's not too late..left half a semester...realised how far behind i am on law...accounting is no better..only thing i'm relatively comfortable with is econs..oh well..................MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG (from tml onwards)

sighz...End of the Road...

Girl you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see

We belong together
And you that I'm right
Why do you play with my heart,
Why do you play with my mind?
Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?
When I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around and around

Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you
Come to the End of the Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I
Can you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down

Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you
Come to the End of the Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you

Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it,
I just didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do you?

I'm here for you
I'm not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for you 'till my dying day baby

Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you?
Just come back to me

(Lonely) Yes baby my heart is lonely
(Lonely) My heart hurts baby
(Lonely) Yes I feel pain too

Baby please
This time instead just come to my bed And baby just don't let me go

Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you
Come to the End of the Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural,
you belong to me,
I belong to you

"End of the Road" - Boys II Men

lloooooonnnnggggg daaayyyyy

woke up earlee today to watch Yugi-oh..well been doing that everyday anyway..decided to go down to sch earlier to do my stupid computing assignment..bloody MSAccess...I HATE DATABASES!!! nf, if u read this..DUN ASK ME TO DO ANYMORE DATA ENTRY WHEN I GO BACK TO SINGAPORE!!!! aniwae went for accounting lecture, regretted going..Costa just went thru a self-assessment question that we've done in the tutorials..though i know how to do that question already, at least when he explained it..i can actually understand what's he saying..as compared to my tutor...nothing against her but i simply can't understand her english...though i'm slowly getting used to it..i think by the time i really get used to it..semester over liao haiz...ended early and i went to buy a couple of sushi rolls for "lunch" it was 1pm..but technically it's breakfast..but it's too late to be considered that..and too late to be considered brunch...so "lunch".. went back for econs lecture...well..keynesian theory...**snnooozzee** 3 hrs lecture..however during the first break..apparently we had a fire drill...stupid alarm went off and we all evacuated from the movie theatre we were in..so over a hundred students were standing outside, along the most crowded street in the CBD...blocking traffic..and after 5 mins we went back in..damn bo liaoz...after the lecture went back to the comp lab at bldg 108 to "teach" richard and naomi some stuff abt the computing assignment...didn't really succeed to teach them much..because well..language barrier..plus i oso dun really know how to explain to them...richard is indonesian..though his english is okie..but sometimes i can't really grasp what's he saying..naomi is chinese..but my chinese cannot make it..and her lingo quite different from my singaporean mandarin...so...language barrier again..aniwaez..at 5.30pm we went for an accounting revision lecture...it was more productive than the last 5 weeks i spent at sophia's tutorial...FINALLY i could understand what the tutor was talking abt...i'm thinking abt jumping ship...but i think i'll only do it after i hand in my assignment..tutorial ended at abt 7...

and so concludes my longest day thus far...haiz...sianz...but my computing assignment is still 1/2 done...okie..1/3 done...okie..1/4 done...hehz.. =P

anyway tired liao..haven't been sleeping well the whole weekend...getting a headache..and someone's sick..haiz.....sianz......

dun believe this...it isn't true..

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Extreme
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's" Inferno Hell Test

Sighz

And ev'rytime I get to thinking,
with ev'ry thought of you I want to shout aloud
and then I think about the love I had inside me
and how you brought what's inside out.

So now love's made it to the outside
I want to tell the world of ev'rything I've found
somehow your love released a spring wound up inside me
you turned my living upside down;

And I can't tell the bottom from the top
am I standing on my head or on my heels?
Is it cloudy, is it bright?
Is it day or is it night?
Am I wrong or am I right
and is it real?

Tell me where you learned the magic
the spell you used the day you made me fall
baby now I know that love is no illusion
I'm upside down but ten feet tall.

And I can't tell the bottom from the top
am I standing on my head or on my heels?
Is it cloudy, is it bright?
Is it day or is it night?
Am I wrong or am I right
and is it real?

On and on I drifted with the tide
I didn't know that love could move me so
you filled my life with love and much more besides
and you showed me which way to go;

And I can't tell the bottom from the top
am I standing on my head or on my heels?
Is it cloudy, is it bright?
Is it day or is it night?
Am I wrong or am I right
and is it real?

"I Can't Tell the Bottom from The Top" - The Hollies

If

If my heart was a beggar,
would you toss crumbs of affection?

If my soul was lost,
would you give it directions?

If my days were numbered,
would you sit and hold my hand?

If my eyes filled with tears,
would you try to understand?

If I was standing in the cold,
would you offer me your coat?

If my mind had an address,
would you drop me a note?

If i held the sunshine,
would you let me warm your day?

if i told you i loved you,
...would you run away?

Quit Playing Games with my heart

Quit Playing' Games(With My Heart)
Baby...
Even in my heart I see
You're not being true to me
Deep within my soul I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad baby
Chorus
Quit playing games with my heart
Before you tear us apart
I should have known from the start
You know you've gotta stop
Quit playing games with my heart
I live my life the way
To keep you coming back to me
Everything I do is for you
So what is it that you can't see
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
You better quit playi ng games with my heart
Chorus
Quit playing games with my heart
Baby, baby the love that we had was so strong
Don't leave me hangin' here forever
Oh baby, baby this is not a lie
Let's stop this tonight
Baby, ooh
Quit playin' games
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na baby
Na na na na na na na
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playin' games with my heart
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na baby
Na na na na na na na
Quit playin'games with my heart
Na na na na na na na (with my heart)
Na na na na na baby
With my heart, with my heart

That's all

All I Have To Give
I don't know what he does to make you cry
but I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart ? - I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart

Chorus
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

When you talk, does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say ?
That's ok babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time ?
Baby please, I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine !!
Chorus
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

Bridge
To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to the love
I have inside...
I love you
Bass Break
And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give to you

shld i...or shldn't i....

that is the question....

shld i or shldn't i....

can someone answer for me??

shld i or shldn't i.....

why is it so tough??

shld i or shldn't i....

really need the answer...

shld i or shldn't i...

would i regret??

shld i or shldn't i??

maybe it'll be rewarding..

shld i or shldn't i??

okie..i think i'll blog... =P

Wine quotes

"It is well to remember that there are five reasons for drinking: the arrival of a friend; one's present or future thirst; the excellence of the wine; or any other reason."
Latin saying

"Good wine ruins the purse; bad wine ruins the stomach."
Spanish saying

"A waltz and a glass of wine invite an encore."
Johann Strauss

"Drink no longer water but use a little wine for thy stomach's sake and thine often infirmities."
1 Timothy 5:23

May you have the hindsight to know where you've been,
the foresight to know where you are going,
and the insight to know when you've gone too far.
Unknown

haiz...

low morale today...raining since last night...

went for my first ever bible study on thursday..was quite interesting..might be going back next week as they are a nice and interesting bunch..

played football for the first time since more than a year ago...thankfully my ankle held up but i've really lost ALL my moves..can't even kick the ball properly...never felt so uncomfortable on the ball before..oh well..guess my time's over...but can go and train there every friday...and i'd probably need better shoes...SAF new balance sux for football...cannot control properly at all...

haiz....stupid rain dampening my spirits...making me feel lonely...though have 2 housemates...but different kinda loneliness...i mean they are great..but oh well...

watched the opening ceremony of the Olympics on telly last nite...one thought just kept floating in my head...they probably spent millions and maybe billions on the event...making elaborate costumes, special effects, fireworks yadah yadah...won't the money be more useful giving aid to third world countries? "Celebration of peace and freedom"...my arse...use the bloody money more fruitfully and that'll be the celebration...so many organisations asking for relief money...they just blew so much on an opening ceremony...and who benefitted from it? well..i'm sure the organising committee got paid loads...true, a lot of jobs has been created the last 3-4 years in Greece..what about after the games? unemployment galore...but who am i to say that right? i guess their economists have thought abt that...but it's still a whole lot of money wasted...

oh well...who cares anyway?

oh yah...went for macroecons tutorial on thursday and the tutor was comparing standard of living in singapore and aussie...well she said, Singapore may have bigger wealth per household, but what about quality time with family? so many parents in singapore leave their children at home with their maids, and they dun have quality time for their children. however in aussie they have more time to stay at home with their children, children are "given more attention" at home..so aussie has a higher standard of living....
sighz...ignorance...didn't know whether to laff or cry when i heard that...though i can't say that which country has the higher standard of living...i just have this to say...there is dole in aussie...there's no dole in singapore...in singapore...u dun make money..u die...in aussie..the govt feeds u... seems like there's alot more welfare here in aussie right? what abt the working population...what's the load on them? they are not only feeding their own family they are probably feeding their neighbours who refuses to go look for work because the govt is giving them more than if they worked..higher standard of living...hahahaha

i'm in a lousy mood...just figured?

Song of the day....

How can I think I'm standing strong,

Yet feel the air beneath my feet?

How can happiness feel so wrong? How can misery feel so sweet?

How can you let me watch you sleep, Then break my dreams the way you do?

How can I have got in so deep? Why did I fall in love with you?

This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been

Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,

This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,

I was never crazy on my own...

And now I know that there's a link between the two,

Being close to craziness and being close to you.

How can you make me fall apart

Then break my fall with loving lies?

It's so easy to break a heart; It's so easy to close your eyes.

How can you treat me like a child Yet like a child I yearn for you?

How can anyone feel so wild? How can anyone feel so blue?

This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own...
And now I know that there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.

Katie Melua - "The Closest Thing to Crazy"

Happy Birthday Singapore....

The Singapore flag was officially adopted on December 3, 1959.

The white crescent represents Singapore as a new nation, the five stars symbolize democracy, equality, justice, peace and progress, while white is representative of the purity and virtue of the people, and red stands for universal brotherhood.

i'm a bad guy

i'm a bad guy

very bad guy

don't ask why

Song of the moment

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do
I will be strong, I will be faithful
Coz I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning (yeah)
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet skyI'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the
Pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of
The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
Coz it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

*credit to shanna for picking the starting alphabet of the singer...