Am I Weird?

Am I weird? Everyone I've met so far, everyone I've talked to, all asked me the same question at one point or another - "Do you miss home?" Well, I don't miss home.

Am I supposed to miss home? I guess it's human nature to miss home when they are away from home. Everyone longs to be close to people they love and people who love them. When you take a person away from that environment, it is the norm for that person to want to go home. Humans do not like unfamiliar places. When they reach an unfamiliar area, their first instinct is to retreat. Go back to where they came from. Go back to where they are familiar and where they know their way around. So people think that whenever another leaves home/country, they will miss home. It is almost a given. Leave home, miss home. Sometimes it don't even need the person to be out of the country to miss home. Someone can be having a bad day at work and they miss home. Missing home seems to be a very normal thing.

Don't get me wrong, I do love being home. There are many things for me to go back to at home. My parents, my sister, my grandparents, all my aunties and uncles, my cousins. There are also my friends, people like ah des, nf, yf..all my closest friends..my billiards kakis..there's plenty to miss back home..BUT

what's the point? what's the point of missing home so much? i prefer to enjoy what i have now..i choose to be happy..if i'm missing home all the time..i'm not happy...if i miss home so much..how am i going to survive next semester when i go home for holidays this semester break?

i know my mum, my dad and my sis misses me back home..but pa, ma, jie..i chose to come here..and i'm doing fine here..though i do not miss home, u all are always on my mind..but i have chosen not to miss home because i dun wan the same thing to happen as when i was in perth when i missed home and couldn't do well enuff there..i do not have any other alternatives now..this is my last try..i know that i've been messing up my life for the last few years..but trust me that i'll make good this time ard..DO NOT WORRY ABT ME..that u all keep worrying abt me makes me worry that u are worrying abt me...get it??

bad idea typing this blog...making me feel sianz again..