ever experienced the situation whereby u have alot to say to someone...then as soon as u see him/her/it, u can't remember a damn thing that u were thinking about? well...i just had it...so...niteyz...

okie..learnt something tonight...america loves singers who sound like donald duck...John Stevens was voted off american idol tonight, and somehow they voted Jasmine trias into the bottom three. well now we know that people with no taste got too much time on their hands and spend it on voting on american idol. okie a sweeping statement...but who cares? certainly not me...i'm pissed...and pissed people say funny things...but what i say is logical...and any sane person will agree with me...

anyhow...i turn my attention to tml's survivor episode..where...i think either Shii-ann or big tom is going home...if Shii-ann don't win immunity, and i don't think she will then she's going home. but then, i'm watching survivor only for Rupert, cos he's a true survivor, the only other person more worthy of the title is Rudy

i don't know why i'm so into reality shows, but i only watch Survivor actually, the rest, just don't cut it. esp those Bachelor/Bachelorette stuff. absolutely ridiculous. what's even more ridiculous, MediaCorp actually copied it. P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

since tonight's blog is all about tv, my fave hongkong serial, "A Step into the Past" is ending tml too. haiz..so sad...no more Xiang Shaolong and Qin Qing. this show is a babe-fest. other than Michelle Saram and the character "Zhao Ya", basically all the other female characters are super chio...okie at least to me they are....and my friends know i dun find just any gal chio one...must have certain standard. and of cos, there's the ever-cool Louis Koo, who i think is the coolest HK actor after Andy Lau will is forever King.

wuah...long post tonight, but i'm not done yet. tried on my no.4 uniform this afternoon....and i barely squeezed into my smart 4. going to be a fun 2 weeks next week..haiz..

second last thing, my sis's going to Malacca tml for stock-take, to say i'm not worried would be a lie, but at least she's going with a team of colleagues. but i just don't trust malaysia. just too much car-jacking and stuff like that which happens for me to ever feel safe in there. oh well...pray for her..

last thing, another construction disaster in singapore..2 in 3 weeks....getting interesting, so who's betting on the next place?

yaawwwnnnzzzzzzzzz

any of u actually watch American Idol? i think even i could sing better than those "stars". well maybe Jasmine Trias can sing, or rather she's pretty enough to distract me from her singing and John Stevens' goofy enough to do the same. Ok, maybe it's because it's Gloria Estefan night, and it's totally not the style of all of them, but at least Diana DiGar-something did okie. Oh, and I hope that tonight spells the end of Fantasia-something.. can't stand her attitude. if she could actually sing, at least her attitude is understandable. she's exactly what Simon Cowell said she was tonight, a cross between Donald Duck and helium....hahaha...BUT.. Jasmine Trias...(happy sigh)...so chio..now that she's taken away the flower from her ear, looks even more chio liaoz...i think either Jasmine or John will win it..Jasmine because she can sing, John because he has a huge following (that's how he's still in it anyway)

okie enough ranting for one night...JOIN MY FORUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunno for what...JUST JOIN!!!!!!!!

hmmz..out of utter boredom and bo liaoness, i've created a messge forum. for what..i don't know, but i'm thinking it can be a place where my friends can come together, whichever part of the world they are in and catch up with each other. okie i know there's icq and this and that, but i'm thinking it might be able to expand further to include movie reviews and those kinda stuff. i dunno.. anyway the site can be found HERE

currently there's no special categories inside, mainly because i don't know what to add right now. if any of u have any suggestions at all, please email me or leave a note on the forum. thanx..

checked my guestbook yesterday and found a new entry by sijie. i never knew that he was in Toa Payoh Methodist too..even more amazing was he was the narrator of our K2 play..i was the other narrator!! what a small world...and to think that i've only found out now after so many years..more than 10 years already. haiz..

well had a great time in church today, mainly because i've recovered from my flu and now can sing again. feels so good being able to sing praises to the Lord. that was something i really missed during my time in australia last year.

today was a weird day though. in the morning when i opened my windows, a cool breeze came in. considering that the sun's shining brightly i was surprised that it's actually so cooling. i thought it'll be a nice cool day. i was wrong. by 10 the temperatures has soared and it's as hot as the previous week has been. only good thing.. i've cut my hair..hehz..

michael schumacher won the San Marino grand prix today..very happy that ferrari won, but sad that my fave driver rubens barrichello could only finish 6th..haiz...but at least ferrari won...

oh well...man utd lost again...surprising thing is...i wasn't expecting them to win in the first place. oh well...

my arms are still feeling like crap...going to take a chopper and chop both off.. but carrying some light weights seemed to have made it slightly better. the pain though has made me rather listless and irritable...just that any position my arm is in i'll feel alot of discomfort..can't stand it anymore..

reservist is coming soon. i've cut my hair...after keeping my hair for almost a year..today cut it...rather sad...plus the pain in my arm...rather pissed..haiz..damned reservist...so irritating...but there's good that's come out of it..weather so hot nowadays..finally feel cooler. actually have been thinking of cutting it shorter for quite a while..but just can't find enough motivation to go cut it. argh..enough abt my hair..

wanted to go buy a new handfone today..but found that it's too expensive...not prepared to pay almost $700 for a fone that i want. the most expensive fone i've bought so far costs about $300? i think around this price la...it could have been $200 cheaper but i have to sign a new plan..which i don't want to do cos i don't need so many lines..incoming free calls for me is useless cos nobody calls me. i can barely use up my $20 rebate off calls at the moment. my plan comes with 300 free sms. i can hardly get above 100 these days. all the "special" services that M1 provides they are giving me for free because i've been using this line for like ever since m1 started out. paying $20 for a $50 plan. hmmz...being single is good i guess...save so much money...and i'm out of work now...so at least there's one less thing to drain my money...

damn..i need a life..

hehz...okie..i know i haven't been blogging recently..but when i was sick, i caught another bug. that's the CM03-04 bug again. well it's because of a story i read on SI game's forum. it's about this guy, who in the game, took control of an Italian club, Ragusa. Ragusa is a team in the lowest league playable in Italy and he's trying to win big things about it. The way he wrote it, well, I just couldn't resist embarking on a similar run as him. so the whole week has been spent trying to do the same. i'll probably be still trying to do the same for weeks to come hehz..

anyhow, a big match is on tonight. Man Utd VS Lilyfools. going to be an interesting match cos basically, both teams desperately needs points. haiz..but then again, which team doesn't need points? haha i'm a bit cranky this early in the morning. Strains to muscles in both arms don't help much..sighz..

haven't been blogging...too sick to think of things to blog...still too sick to think of things to write...so...tata

nose's slightly better..but still not good..sighz..haven't been sick for so long that i forgot that i hate being sick..just took 2 panadols..think i'm going to faint soon..listening to some classical pieces now...to make sure i really faint..reminds me of last time when i was studying for O levels..always listening to 92.4FM for the classical pieces...to relax..create a better studying(sleeping) environment..

dun really wanna write much oh..and now i believe in advertisement..haha yesterday i put up a bulletin on friendster abt my blog...and now there are 2-3 more people reading my blog..okie..i know..i'm pathetic...

nitez

i'm feeling vv vv vv sick.....terrible feeling in my nasal area...haiz..just finished watching man utd win...well sort of a win...played rather badly but still managed to scrap a win..better than nothing

dad bought a digital cam today...and it's the one he has been targetting..oh well..it's rather beeg and bulky though...just like him to buy one like that...everyone going for slimmer and smaller..he goes for beeg and bulky..haiz..oh well...better than nothing..

cannot think liaoz...going to sleep soon

"Your love compels me, Lord, to give as You would give,
To speak as You would speak, to live as You would live.
Your love compels me, Lord, to see as You would see,
To serve as You would serve, to be what You would be."

"Thank you, Jesus, for Your love to me.
Thank you, Jesusm for Your grace so free.
I'll lift my voice to praise Your Name,
Praise You again and again.
You are everything, You are my Lord."

"I love you, Lord, and I lift my voice.
To worship You, O my soul, rejoice.
Take joy, my King, in what You hear.
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound in Your ear."

"Fill my eyes, Oh my God with a vision of the cross,
Fill my heart with love for Jesus the Nazarene.
Fill my mouth with Thy praise,
Let me sing, through endless days.
Take my will, let my life be wholly Thine."

"It is a thing most wonderful, almost too wonderful to be, that God's own Son should come from heaven, and die to save a child like me.
And yet I know that it is true; He came to this poor world below, and wept and toiled and mourned and died, only because He loved us so.
I cannot tell how He could love; a child so weak and full of sin; His love must be most wonderful, if He could die my love to win.
I sometimes think about His Cross, and shut my eyes, and try to see. The cruel nails and crown of thorns, and Jesus crucified for me.
But even could I see Him die, I could but see a little part, of that great love which like a fire, is always burning in His heart.
It is most wonderful to know, His love for me so free and sure; But 'tis more wonderful to see, my love for Him so faint and poor.
And yet I want to love Thee, Lord; O light the flame within my heart, and I will love Thee more and more, until I see Thee as Thou art."

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.
But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God."
John 3:16-21

Even though Jesus knew tat in the hours that would follow His disciples would forsake Him and that one would even deny knowing Him, He offered a prayer to His Father on their behalf. His prayer was not a petition for God to make strong their weaknesses, or to make perfect their imperfections or deepen their shallow faith. Instead, it was a tender prayer that the Father would keep them in His care.

His love moved Him to respond with patience to the weaknesses of His disciples. His love moved Him to pray to His Father, "Not My will but Thine be done."
His love reached beyond personaly agony and suffering to the penitent thief when He said, "Today you will be with Me in Paradis."
His love was revealed when He said, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."
His love for a lost and dying world moved Him to hang on a cross in pain and humiliation, to make the supreme sacrifice on the cross. How then has His love moved me?

it's 3.20am...and i just reached home...des and sijie called up and we went for supper with mel...went to adam road hawker centre..din eat anything cos still very full from dinner just had a teh-peng...after that we went for a spin..and we really spun...from adam road we went to siglap where we had coffee...then went to nus..wanted to eat roti prata but couldn't find parking so we went to west coast park to "catch monkeys"...hey..what's 3 bored guys to do in the night??? after that we went to kent ridge hill which was rather nice...quite a nice environment...good ambience for couples but..again...3 guys haiz...in any case...shortlisted that place...good venue..after that we went down to town...drove ard for a while then decided to go look for mel again who went back to smu to study...exams next week...

anyway..it's real cool hanging out with the guys..just what i needed actually..been rather down lately but catching up with them lifted up my spirits somewhat...best thing of it was the recollection of our times when we were still in primary school...those crazy days..really miss those carefree days...things were just so simple back then...nothing to worry abt..sighz...

probably the next few entries i'll talk abit on my fave times in primary school...who knows...aniwaez..shacked liaoz..better sleep..

received a call from Changi Airbase...told me that my GPMG course is cancelled...at least got a bit of humanity...at least have some time to prepare for uni...if i get in in the first place..

i've sunk to a new low...looking in my sis's vcd collection for something to watch..found one..put it on...and after 5 mins...i felt my IQ drop 20pts...and that show was Legally Blonde 2...anyway..i finished watching the whole thing..actually i agonised through it and well..it tot me something..and that's dun watch legally blonde 3..even if there's nothing else to watch in the whole wide world.....

think i'll go out tml afternoon...just go town walk abt..aimlessly loitering my life away...or i could stay home...make instant mee...and watch another stupid vcd...life's tough choices...sighz...

sighz..haven't been sleeping well the last 2 nights...totally din sleep at all thursday night actually...and last nite...well...slept better..supposed to go to my cousin's commissioning parade today but skipped it because of the Man Utd VS ARSEnal match..good thing in the end cause it was raining and there was a lightning risk...SAF and lightning just don't mix..haha oh well...the match was intriguing as usual..but the important thing is...Man Utd 1-0 ARSEnal...haha treble my ARSE...good they are..but that's what happen when u try to belittle Man Utd..dun understand why Pires wasn't punished more severely for throwing a punch at neville..and it's really amazing how a 6ft+ player can go down to ground so easily so many times..and i'm talking about all the ARSEnal players...it really seems as though they have diving lessons during the training sessions...it's so predictable and they all do it in the same style..when they shield the ball...let the ball run away abit and fall on it..ridiculous..but oh well...that's ARSEnal...so who cares?

been thinking about something for the last 2 days dun really wanna talk abt it here...at least not till i've really come to a conclusion...dunno why i'm thinking abt it anyway..maybe cos i'm too free? or rather something happened to trigger those thoughts again...tot they were behind me...oh well...life goes on...

nitez

realised after the last post that i do have a faithful reader somewhere after checking my tracker...however i don't know who that person is..oh well..to that person...thank you for reading...hope by now u realise how boring and meaningless a life i have..

anyhow met up with des today and we spent the afternoon at potblack playing snooker and pool...we spent nearly 4 hours there and well...i have a neckache...anyone who plays billiards will know why...oh and i realised that 9-ball is actually more fun than the normal pool everyone plays...not that it really matters...snooker is still the best of all..really need to work on my stamina....then again..what i really need is probably a hair cut...couldn't see the balls with my fringe falling all over my eyes..then again...i could simply wear a hairband...oh but on the other hand...i'm just one month away from reservist so i've to cut my hair sooner or later...earghhh!!!!!! can't make up my mind...

tml morning i'll go for a swim...time to start working out again...hopefully in a month i'll be able to regain at least 1/3 of my former fitness...at least enuff to pass my ippt..sighz...xiang(2) dang(1) nian(2)...(wanted to put in chinese characters here..but apparently chinese star doesn't work here, oh and i dunno which dang or dan is it ;P) talking abt fitness...i put on 2 kg back...sighz..after losing 5kg last week...just now measured and i'm back up to 67kg..sighz...work harder!!!!!! GAMBATTE!!!!!

that's abt it tonite...

A heart once broken will be mended over time into a new one and the old one will be gone forever...that's how we move on in life...

by myself