just came off my usual night tv marathon...was watching a show on HBO just now...abt a guy who used to be a pro ice-hockey player who lost his way and passion for the game and as how all similar movies end he finds his passion, wins the most impt game, destroys the bad guy and gets the gal..oh well...that's why it's called a movie. don't people get bored of all these stupid endings? in real life it practically never happens. the person u love or really wanna see at the end of the last game/race/watever will never be there....even if u score the winning goal in the finals it wun change your life and live happily ever after..why do movies always paint the perfect ending to everything? probably that's why i haven't really seen a movie that i can relate to in a long time..maybe that's just because my life is the dumps now...oh well...simply sick of the good guy winning all the time...in real life the good guy NEVER wins...oki oki i know i'm not a "good" guy..i've done so many stupid/inconsiderate/irresposible things in my life but that's besides the point....

the real point is...hopefully when i get into uni...i'll be able to change the way i'm leaving my life now...i have to change it...this is not the way one shld be living....can't take it anymore being so closed off the rest of the world...time to change my attitude and be more socialable sick and tired of what's happening now....

tml's friday, or shld i say it's friday...means my cousin's coming for tuition in the afternoon...wonder what bombshell he's going to drop on me this time...6 weeks and no improvement i have no idea how to help him now sick of all the excuses sick of the attitude sick of saying the same things week in...week out...i haven't even gotten out of algebra!!!!!!! any help i can get i'll take it..

arrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!