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i actually completed 2 days of part-time work. my first ever part-time job. don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. oh well..the experience is quite alright, maybe because i did it with des so it was very enjoyable haiz...the job was to scan bar codes of clothing..the scanning was alright, it was the carrying of the boxes and boxes of jeans that's the tiring part, now i have aches in my back, neck, hamstrings...butt..basically everywhere that's movable hurts...almost cramped just now while typing this stupid blog..oh well...the "hard work" is over..and for $5 an hour...so this couple of days i earned $65? the money will come in the end of the month..but i've already spent $63 of it on a pair of shoes...haiz...how will i ever save....this is not me..i usually am able to save alot...

i have changed..

oh well..its 2am...doing some soul-searching..and i realised..i have to give myself another chance..i'm trying to give myself another chance..but then, however many chances i give myself, if some people don't give me chances..i have no chance as well...true? i dunno..is what i'm hoping for a chance at even worth hoping for that chance? i'm lost..it's late....

the last couple of days i'd been thinking quite a bit..just how nice it could be..how i hope i wun make the same mistakes i did..thinking...thinking...all wishful thinking..

reality is cruel..one mistake and that's it...no one gives a damn anymore