Tomorrow, I will embark on a journey, a long, winding, perilous journey.

It will be a test, a test I've only ever taken once before. This time though, it'll be a totally new experience, as was the first time. The first time I had others to tell me what it'll be like. Tomorrow, I'm all alone. Nevertheless, I will have to go through with it. Will I struggle? Will I breeze through it? Odds are I'll be struggling through it as I once again step into the uncertainty. The uncertainty that life undoubtedly always brings. But that is life. And that's what makes life worth living - to experience the unknown. To boldly go where no one dares to venture. Jumping straight into the fire, no holds barred.

Let's cut to the chase, tml i'll be going for reservist. sighz, so sianz..new unit, dunno anybody there, no friends, haiz..............even worse than when i went to BMT in Hendon camp. at least at Hendon, there were people i know from JC and sec sch. Tml i'll be all alone with no friends, and probably with so many lao jiaos i'll kena bullied because i most undoubtedly will be the youngest. best thing of all, i'm going there without fitness, having been ill the last couple of weeks, without proper gear because i can't remember what i'm supposed to have. i dun even have headgear, should i go with my beret? but i dunno what colour beret this stupid unit is wearing. oh well.....first day will be fun...i'm sure of it. let's just hope they dun make reservist personnel do too many push-ups. haha 2 weeks.......will i survive 2 weeks??? this is airforce though, notoriously slack, but considering the most rigorous exercise i've done to date is, climbing stairs? i'll probably die after day 1.

enough about that...i finished reading the final book of the Left Behind series this morning. it was great...exciting and gripping as usual, i didn't put it down after turning the cover. well i did doze off a few times, i always do because i read mostly on the bed. anyway, the book really makes me wonder how it'll really be like during the tribulation years, during the rapture and the second-coming of Christ. If events do take place like how the book describes it, Rapture, followed by tribulation years, followed by Jesus's second-coming, would I leave during the Rapture? or would i be left behind to face the perils of the Antichrist? a part of me wants to leave during the Rapture, but somehow there's this niggling part in the corner of my mind that wants to be left behind. well because those leaving first have already been saved. those left behind are the ones who needs to be saved as they have yet to come to the Lord. a weird part of me wants to stay behind to help these people, BUT it's not my choice. God's will be done, and He does things in His own time. i know i'm powerless to do anything without Him. oh well, till that day comes, we'll see. We'll ALL see.

sighz....